I dreamt last night that I woke up and there were three thoughtful and kind and interesting messages in my tumblr messagebox.

This felt good for about three seconds, before I realized I was going to have to answer them, and they all needed long and nuanced replies, and I hadn't answered the thoughtful and kind and interesting message from last ( Read more... )

Ugh, I'm sorry. I shouldn't post things like that and then crash, but I kind of did.

Mrrrph.

I should take my work and get out of the house.

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...My attempts to analyze this book keep turning into tirades about what a horrible person I am.

This is not productive, dammit.

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ARGH. I wanted to feel better so I could go to the awesome guest lecture that's on this evening, I didn't want to feel so sick and shaky after two days of class that even doing dishes was an iffy prospect ( Read more... )

Oh my gosh, this comic is full of femslash, it is awesomeAnd some probably unintentionaly hilarious commentary on how gender roles define what is and isn't flirting ( Read more... )

The odd thing about being around my aunt is that she takes things I'd intended as neutral descriptors of my body as evidence I need reassurance.

Trouble is, my body is one of the few aspects of me I don't actually have major issues around.

It hurts my feelings. My hips are broad. My shoulders are broad. I am not dainty, I'm over five foot ten ( Read more... )

I am all frustrated with myself this morning and do not know why ( Read more... )

Yes, a link on
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So, it has been an entire week since I went a day without crying for at least an hour.

I feel this is long enough! The crying jags can go away now! I would be totally cool with that! It's okay, crying jags, you won't hurt my feelings if you move on to other interests!

No, this never works. Shuuuuuush, maybe these ones don't know that.

This ( Read more... )

Okay! The frightening, intrusive thoughts can stop any moment now! I would be totally cool with that! You know what else I would be cool with? The feeling of free floating panic! That too can leave at any time, I mean, I don't need a hug and kiss good bye, I'm not going to be worried that I am a boring host visited only because of social convention ( Read more... )